Real men WILL NEVER SPARKLE.

Okay so Im brunette now. The minute I felt the dye touch my scalp I cringed. Yes..I regretted it. But..I am thinking once I go back then I will finally have the dying bug out of my system. Its better brown than pink or blue, right?

So I have to let off some steam..I just recently saw Twilight. Ya ya ya, Im a girl so I MUST love twlight, riiight? Oh heck no. And if I were the dangerous type to swear you know what id say instead of heck. Are you serious? Ok, so the story line is fairly interesting. I read it, guilty. But did I enjoy it? Some parts, but not at the end when I felt like I was going to puke. Or when Bella was all over Edward. What in heavens name does she see in the guy? He freaking wants to eat her..Im sorry but I do not find that sexy one single bit. If some guy were to say "Your blood smells so yummy I just want to eat you." Id probably put a restraining order on the dude. Even if he was bruce Willis, and if you know me you know that means a heck of a lot. (seeing as I would love to be with Bruce in so many ways possible, that is not in real life cuz he's probably a jerk.)
Anyways, the movie was like the book. The only part I liked about it was the bad guys. They were hard core. I was rooting for them the whole time. Especially the main bad guy. Whew! If he were edward id be wearing those " I love Edward" shirts any day. But instead Edward is a skinny, weird, psycho. He is so ugly I almost puked when I heard all the little girls, and might I add fairly older women, swooning over the guy. Pleeeease. (im going to get killed for writting this)
I feel bad for my Sister and brother in law. They liked it, and I just had to gag. But hey, they can like him and the movie/books all they want. Fine with me. Just dont ask me to swoon over the pansy. Cuz you wont see me doing it unless I am on drugs and someone was going to give me 2 million bucks.
One last thing..A GUY THAT SPARKLES?? You have GOT to be kidding me!! What the *#*%&*#&%&^%^#*@??! Are you sure he doesnt want to hook up with Jacob black and using Bella as a front?! For heavens sakes!! If my guy sparkled..well, he wouldnt be my guy any longer. Sorry to any guy who naturally sparkles. Tough luck. And in the movie when Edward tells Bella that he watched her sleep...okay, you dont have something better to do than watch her sleep ALL night? If a guy told me that id wonder how large his brain was. How does he even form sentences? Give me a freaking break.
Sorry to everyone who owns a "Real men sparkle" T-shirt (gag). At least you guys are so preoccupied with a ...ahem...gay vampire, that I can have real men like Bruce Willis. I dont care how old he is, he is hardcore, and I have not heard any accounts that he sparkles. Thank heavens.

Ps. Obsession is not sexy. Its freaky. I want someone to be in love with me, not freaking obsessed. And I therefore have never been, nor ever will be, obsessed with any man. Thats just weird.

Adventure

So I just got back from a quick adventure outside and it was soo great! The sun was setting, brilliant and poignant. I could imagine myself licking the sky and tasting the blistering sunset, swallowing deep as it scorched my throat, filling my belly with intensifying warmth, trickling down my arms and legs to my toes and fingers. I felt warm just watching it. The purples were dusty, the reds were seered across the sky like angry eyes or a burning devil. I was entranced, walking backwards on the pavement, not being able to tear my eyes away from the carnage of the sky.
I walked down the road a ways until I got to the railroad tracks that crossed the tracks. I followed them a while and then climbed atop an abandonded tank car. (Pulled by trains, they are the round ones that hold gasses mostly)I sat on the top and watched the sunset, not thinking, just watching and feeling. I looked over the whole expanse of the town and gazed at the bright temple on the highest point of Rexburg. It was quiet except for the distant sound of cars which I didnt even register in my reverie. After watching the sunset calm into a peaceful sleep, its breath soft in its repose, I climbed down and walked slowly on the tracks. Still, there were no thoughts in my mind, the calmness of the oncoming night wiped them away, dragging them into the ground around me. There was only the fresh air that pumped through my lungs, enlivening my blood.
After some time climbing on different tank cars trying to find the best perch, I finally headed back home because the darkness urged me to my safe abode. Walking back I saw that the track seemed to lead on forever, unbending and as straight as a pointing finger. I felt mesmerized and almost hypnotized wanting to walk as far as I could on the neverending road. Although the spell was only broken moments later when I happened to spy a loose nail. It was very large and rusted but I picked it up proud of my rare find.
Seeing that the roads were being traveled by me and me alone I was filled with a giddyness. I began to whistle. I soon found myself skipping to the song sung by the scarecrow in The Wizard of Ozz. Carrying on like a mad woman for the duration of my walk back home, I was filled with a sense of fufillment and peace. I had had my mini adventure for the day and had organized plans in my head to endeavor on another yet more extravagant one in the morning. This way I would be able to go everywhere and not worry about the dark ruining my fun.
This is my way of feeling alive. This is my way of being myself, where the real and content Caitlin awakes and plays. The world is my backyard, my playground. I live for things like this and will, forever.

Peaceful Sunday

It smells delicious outside. It smells like roast beef and ham.( maybe its turkey) Its soooo yummy. I wanted to wander around knocking on people's doors asking who was making dinner that smelled so good. I wonder if they would let me have a taste. ;) jk So its pretty outside and almost magical. I know that sounds dorky but its like an energy in the air that you can feel, almost smell. (or maybe that was the mouthgwatering aroma) I really enjoyed taking a quick walk outside. I think i'll go back out there and climb on the trains and just chill (literatly because its pretty cold outside) and just relax, listen to all the cool sounds that there are out in the world. Its so quiet when you just sit and listen. Quiet in a busy way sometimes. Sometimes in a lazy way, sometimes in just a vacant way because there arent enough people or animals around to make any noises. Its nice I think. I would rather

Word of the Day: Halcyon- calm; peaceful; tranquil. "Halcyon weather."

Coloring

So..Ive been bored with my hair and I want to do something fun. Maybe because Im bored and I just like doing something exciting once in a while. (like dying it black like I did not too long ago) I want to be my natural hair color but at the same time I just want to go all out and get this out of my system before I am supposed to be mature. ;) I am really not caring about looking attractive, I just want to look how I want. Not like intense weird or anything, but just different. Maybe this is really immature and I just need to buckle down and stay away from the hair isle at the store. But these are my ideas=
Blonde with brown streaks
a light brown
Bright blonde
Bright blonde with a black streak
A red streak (subtle)
or blue. lol
So..I kind of need some input. let me know!!!

thanks

Sleep

I had a dream about puppies last night, which is new because usually I have dreams of Kittens. They were soo cute! :) I really really really want a puppy. An alaskan husky and a beagle. I love dogs. I also want a kitten too. In the dream I could also turn into a bird and fly with my little sister Bekah. We were going to turn into birds (she turned into a swallow only and I could turn into any bird I wanted) but she couldn't because there were these doves that would eat her. lol So I just carried her instead but for some reason that day I couldnt turn into a bird. Weird huh? I have the strangest dreams, escpecially recently. :)

Word of the day: a desire or craving: I had a yen for apple pie.
n. A strong desire or inclination; a yearning or craving.
intr.v. yenned, yen·ning, yens
To have a strong desire or inclination; yearn.

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lol I just realized my last post was titled "ANGER MANAGEMENT" and the one before that was "dont worry be happy"...hmm...can I say bipolar or something of the sort?

Word of the day: quixotic- extravagantly chivalrous or romantic; visionary, impractical, or impracticable. Impulsive and often rashly unpredictable.

ANGER MANAGMENT

OOoww...Yes, I am complaining...freaking sore muscles make me feel like an invalid(or however you spell it. dont judge me!!) . But thats okay because I love it and I am addicted and cannot stop. BTW, I love free tasters at Broulims. I stood there next to a free cereal stand (no one was there to stop me..mwahaha) and munched on it for lunch. tehehe Besides, even if a clerk did come up when I was mid-munching/grabbing they wouldnt yell at me, Im just an innocent looking girl. Beware the innocent blue eyes....;) mwaha

Okay, So I was watching the last show of bones (haha, funny show-minus the lesbian loving because I thought that she was MUCH better off with hodgins cuz he is a stud) and Booth and Bones could have kissed but they didnt. Stupid show that keeps you hanging by the lack of romance between the two main characters. Darn them!! DARN THEM!!

Dont worry, be happy

Bonjour. I am feeling french today. Want to know my schedule for school next semester? well, even if you didnt want to know here it is:
Concentration
Notes and listening
Time management
Writing foundations
Old testament
Personal health and wellness

These are not my most favorite classes because these are only night classes and online classes because I am still off-track. Heyyy!!! update!! So Apparently I DID get approved for a cluster in both Art illustration and Philosophy!! :D :D happy day! THAT means that I can, after taking all the classes for the art cluster, switch my philosophy cluster to a minor. That way I can get more of the juicy classes they have here. ya ya ya Im stoked

Word of the day: Blithe- Meaning Joyous or merry;cheerful. "Everyone loved him for his blithe spirit"

Tired and so so hungry

SOooo...I am going to start training for the marathon. Its exciting really, kind of crazy, but I am sooo stoked. Today I exercised for an hour. I had forgotten to eat lunch and so I was soooo hungry by the time I was done. I almost started eating myself, which I am sure thats what my stomach was doing, eating its own linning. Ew, Gross. I can be such a guy sometimes.
So when I was running I was listening to some music that I love to dance to when I am in my room and It was SO tempting to start dancing. It took all of my self preservation to stop my limbs from spazzing out. I liked watching people running next to me when I had finally reached the gym. (I ran to the gym and then ran in the gym) Its so hard to keep a straight face when I see girls with their little sweat towels and their make-up all done and hair all cute. There I am sweating like freaking pig with no make-up on whatsoever. Poor guys at the gym. I probably scared most of them. Too bad...;)
But when I was on the stair stepper (I got to shake my bum on that because it doesnt look as funny so I was technically dancing..heh heh heh) there was a show on that was crazy. I usually dont pay attention to the TV cuz I feel weird excersicing my body but killing my brain at the same time. But the show was about a kid who had hair growing EVERYWHERE. She looked like monkey. It was so sad. I was thinking about what it would be like. No matter how nice someone is, the first thing we see we judge the person we saw. Its a flaw of mankind. Anyways, it was really interesting beacause they can't find a cure but theyre still looking for one. I sure hope, for the kids sake in having a normal life, that they do.
Heres a picture. crazy huh? Poor kid.

Funny

Things that make me laugh= Jim Gaffigan
-People who think they're cool
-kids, especially when theyre hyper.
-Rap; its gay
-Gangster walk
-Guys who think they're hardcore.
-People in the bathroom who grunt and moan
-Farts (admit it, its hilarious)
-Funny dancing
-Eddie Izzard
-People who are silly
-Immaturity
-Uptight guys who sing like girls
-Being tickled
-Watching someone get tickled
-Dumb jokes I come up with
-Watching people look at me funny because my joke was not funny at all
-Hearing my mom laugh
-Listening to Bekah say something ridiculous like screaming, quite seriously, "IM NOT A NORMAL CHILD!!"
-Babies smiling
-Watching Mckenna and Richard tease each other
-Being told a blond joke and not getting why its funny
-Forgetting something really important, like a guy's name on a date..whoooops
-Dancing at work
-Someone acting sheepish
-Someone catching me laughing at something I thought of in my head that is WAY too embarrassing to say aloud.
-Watching someone do the Robot
-My Friend Joey
-Dancing like a maniac to the Cars in the Car (hahaha) at a stop light and not seeing a laughing pedestrian until its too late...
-Tripping when your running by a main street
-Watching someone trip when you drive by
-Getting hyper off of M&M's
-Watching someone singing their heart out in the car
-Catching a guy picking his nose HARDCORE in the car beside you
-A perfectly placed joke
-"your mom.." way over done, but I still say it because I cant think of a better come back
-Running and jumping into a hug and then being spun around
-Hanging upside down on the edge of a couch or bed
-Pretending to walk on the roof when you are upside down
-Coming up with the most ridiculous laugh
-My friend Erica
-My Dad and his perfect corny jokes
-When my mom says something risque, totally out of character
-Jumping on a trampoline
-Old people
-Farting in public, its all our worst fears but when it happens it really gives you a laugh attack
-Saying something that could be taken wrong
-The show Bones
-Doing something absent minded
-Saying something STUPID because you were nervous

wow, its about 2:15 am and I have finally finished making my blog. Whew. Anybody who said that blogging is for the faint hearted was gruesomely wrong.
So, I am now living with my sister and her husband in their two bedroom apartment. Its pretty much for free and you know what? I'll finish this later. lol Im too tired to think straight. I will post a real blog (even though I could have waited but I was just so excited that I had to post something, even if it is of no consequence.) later tomorrow. I guess we will see if I ever get out of bed. Lets hope I do, because I really would like to run an hour tomorrow.
Wish me luck! ;)