Family

Right now I am at my dinner table at home. Bekah is screaming "PLEASE PASS THE PARMESAN CHEESE!!" Stevie is texting his friend, Madeline is looking at pictures on mom's cell phone and Sarah is looking over her shoulder. Its joshie's birthday today and my dad is a little uptight so he can make it the best day for Josh. We are eating tortellini for dinner because Josh requested it. He also requested fruit loops for breakfast, which I was dissapointed in because I am a cinomin toast crunch girl, but I got over it when I realized it was because it was Josh's favorite. (even tried a bowl)
This is a average day in my home. Bekah is the constant insane one, screaming, demanding, yet in her insanity she is wise for her age. Intelligence bursts from her little frame, she says things that she has heard from my mom as she reads to her. I come into her room and she is sitting on her little princess bed reading. One time she told my mom that she was "nervous for this holiday season"
Then there is Joshie, Man of the hour, who has the cutest little two front teeth. He has the most tender personality, and you can tell that he will be a heartbreaker. The charm of my father and the innocence of my mom.
Theres Sarah who is the shyest little woodland creature with her sweet little beauty.
Then there is Alex who has grown up so much. He has the best sense of humor, he always makes me laugh.
Madeline, who I have gotten so protective over, a growing beauty who has tons of strength. (we have hip wars, where you each other in the hips with all our power and she will send me flying.)
Stevie, a gentle giant if you ever seen one. He likes to pat me on the head when I get all fired up. He's got a new nickname for me and its Kitty Lion because Im a "kitty that thinks she is a lion."
My older sister Mckenna who is a fireball but with her husbands love and her life becoming her dreams that she used to tell me she is a beautiful woman who has the grace of an angel. Shes goregous and smart. I wish that I looked like her, but I dont. I look like me and thats okay, I like how I look.
Anyways, that is my family and sometimes I do things that I regret. I let my temper get the better of me and I flare up and say something rude or hurtful. Theyre so patient with me and they just shrug it off and when I come pining back to them begging for forgiveness. Its just hard because I get really uptight and I cant breathe and its hard to act normal. Im working at it but the only time that I am myself and nice and sweet is when I pray and I read my scriptures. Its just the way that it is. So i am doing better at it because the LAST thing that I want to do is to hurt my best of friends, for they are truly my best friends. More than anyone.