I was just thinking the other night about some really nice things strangers have done for me. None of them were during the Christmas season, by the way, they were always something totally unexpected and a great surprise. About two months ago I was walking home from work and I was pretty cranky. There were some things going on that made me pretty angry and therefore I didnt want to talk to anyone. I just stomped home with a frown on my face, soooo tired and so worn out emotionally and physically. That morning I had gone to work at 4 am and I had gotten like three hours of sleep, I had to work eight hours straight and my face was burnt from working the grill and my face was gross with the oil from making fries and picking up the slack of not having enough people helping me in that area. So I was walking, virtually growling in the world, then turning the corner I saw he guy walking towards me. I knew I looked horrible so I was thinking to myself "I know im ugly, just walk on by and pretend that Im not here..growl growl moan moan." He smiled at me and said, with a cheerful smile and a twinkle in his eye "Beautiful view isnt it?" pointint to the view of the Provo city below us (we were on BYU campus, on a hill that overlooked the south part of town) I tried to smile (which probably looked scarier than my frown) and all of a sudden I couldn't think negatively. I couldn't be angry! Believe me, I tried, but I found myself taking a deep breath and praying that Heavenly Father would bless him in his life for touching mine, for he truly risked his by talking to a carnivorous looking young lady like me.
There are so many times in my life that people have been so sweet and kind that I wish that I knew best how I could bless theirs. There are people very dear to me that have listened to me when I was going through a hard time and asked me how I was doing. Friends who stuck with me when I became a hermit and didnt talk to anyone for days on end. :/ Family members who just grinned and bore my strangeness. :) A good friend of mine that I wont be see any more that stuck with me in the hardest of times in which I grew very close to. Every night, without fail, I pray that I can repay them. or when their going through a hard time I can help them the way that they helped me. This is not a seasonal feeling, but one that I hope that will call me to action everyday of every year. And if there is ANYTHING that anyone wanted me to do for them, I would love love love love love love love to do it. Even if its someone to listen to when you talked. I know that I haven't done all I can because I can get pretty shy around people. I just get awkward and Im afraid that I'll hurt their feelings or overstep on my boundaries and do something wrong. One person actually thought that I was avoiding them..yikes..I just get scared. lol Hopefully I'll get over my weakness and cowardice and help others, work on my life as a hermit and step out of my shell. hahaha
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