late late late late

Its late but I think I'm okay. I am kind of rewarding myself for working hard this first week of school (haha...this is not really a reward because it'll throw me off tomorrow. But..I hate mondays anyways)
I just wanted to say a public "Thank you" and then list all the things that I hope for...

First, I want to thank Heavenly Father for giving me a second chance at life. I want to thank hi for everything he has done for me, for being there for me and being patient with me, even though I make so many mistakes OVER AND OVER again.

Secondly, To my family. They have always been there for me and I have never been closer to any other human beings than with them. They are my best of friends and they have been there for me through thick and thin. Theyve seen me at my worst and they still love me. (a miracle..truly)

Third, to everyone who has touched my life. There have been times when I needed a friend and someone was there. Someone to listen to me groan and moan about things that were foolish or tedious. Also, to those in my life who have shown little acts of kindness. From strangers, to good friends. I am truly grateful for your love and your kindness. I never forget it and I always pray that Heavenly father blesses you greatly in so many ways for helping such a silly person as me.

I know this sounds like one of those "thank you"s at the end of a CD jacket, but I just felt like I needed to send out a general thank you out into the void of technology. My heart is truly full. Looking back at my life, I have gone far. Very far from many horrible times in my life. I could say that I had an easy life, but at the same time I could say that I had a very difficult life. I choose to say that I have had a perfect life for me. I need a challenge and Heavenly Father has definitely given me some things to tackle. well..I guess its mostly just so that I can come closer to him because the problems evaporated once I returned into his care.

My testimony of Heavenly Father and of Jesus Christ and The Book of Mormon and of the church are so much a part of me that its impossible to think of my life without these influences. I not only cant see my life without them, I dont want to. Its who I am. Heart mind and soul. And when I make stupid mistakes (and I most definately make my fair share) I feel terrible. I want to be as near to God as I can. I just hope that I can to all that I can to be near him. Maybe someday when I have my cute little kids I can teach them of the happiness they can have. Teach them in a way that they have their choice. I want them to see that I love God and that because of my trying my best to be good he has blessed me and that he blesses everyone in small to very large ways. I want them to have him as their only god, and to glory in his goodness and wisdom. Even if they dont, I will always love them of course. I will always support them, but I know that no happiness can be found without obeying some law of God's. (and laws are not to be broken or worked around. They are there to lift you up. Who ever said that stairs are horrible or that stairs control your life? Doesnt make sense right? Same thing. doesnt make sense why something that is there to help you is meant to hurt you. It only hurts if you fall down the stairs but if you dont have stairs it makes life that much more difficult) You know though, I believe how I do and others have that right. I just feel really blessed and I am glad that I am alive and that I have a chance to live the life that I want.