So badly

I lay in my bed
content but wanting
skin bare and cold
snuggled in my blankets
feeling a claw clamp on my heart;
digging with poison of loneliness.

I close my eyes
I imagine your arms around me
I wish it so deeply
I want it so badly.

When will my heart be able to find a home
amidst all this turmoil and distress?

meu caro, my dear

I need a place to lay my head
and rest.

I close my eyes
I imagine your arms around me
I wish it so deeply
I want it so badly.

I need you closer than you are now
I need to feel your breath on my neck;
to smell your shirts.
I want to bury myself in your chest;
never to leave.

There is a place ive saved for you
no one has taken.
mon cher, my dear,
hold me as close as you can
and i'll always stay.

without you im only half.
A shore without the ocean.
a night sky with no stars
a weary head without a pillow
white piano keys without the ebony.

mi querido, my dear,
hold me with your warm arms
kiss me tenderly
soft lips and soft eyes.
The sun will be brighter
and the world will be brilliant.

Your ghost lies beside me
I feel warmer with your thought
I feel safer knowing you exist;
sleeping and dreaming.
I just wish I knew who you were.

I close my eyes
I imagine your arms around me
I wish it so deeply
I want it so badly.

Someday we will be in bliss
wrapped in joy.
There wont be need to need
I will rock your world
and you will rock mine.